Post-France Self Assessment

Blynn Shideler
Magellan 2015
Reflective Report

            If I had to return to the United States one week into my Magellan Project, I would have already had the most influential summer of my life.  Being immersed into an unfamiliar environment inevitably yields the opportunity to grow.  When you work the first job in your field, you learn more about a subject than a classroom could ever teach.  When you travel to a new country, you unveil a culture that once seemed so esoteric and distant.  When you live on your own, you realize the things in your life that were always given to you, and thus, you appreciate the word “independence” to a new extent.  As for me, when I combined all of these experiences into one long summer in Paris, it was impossible for a day to go by without learning something new, whether it was about science, about the world, or about myself.
            At Washington & Jefferson, I am double majoring in the Engineering 3-2 program and French.  Accordingly, I could not have organized a better Magellan to fit my academic interests.  This summer, I spent twelve weeks in Paris, France as a biomedical research intern at the University of Paris Descartes and l’École Normale Supérieure: two of the top engineering schools in France.  I had the opportunity to follow several projects that used different techniques to quantify human proprioception in the motor nervous system during human activity.  Everyday I spent in the lab, I learned more about this research, and I was soon allowed to design and conduct a few experiments of my own.
            From a researcher’s perspective, my Magellan Project allowed me to learn about modern day engineering research and gain hands-on experience working in a lab far more than I would have at any research internship available in the United States—especially those available as a freshman.  I worked for a company called CogNac-G (Cognitive Action Group): a research team led by a globally-known researcher, Dr. Pierre-Paul Vidal, who has projects running at several different universities and hospitals all across France.  CogNac-G’s main goal is to continue using modern technology to determine characteristics about a healthy human proprioceptive system.  As for the projects at Paris Descartes and ENS, we analyzed characteristics about the human Gait cycle.  The Gait cycle refers to different stages of normal walking motion.  Before my internship, I never considered how complex human walking actually could be.  Walking seems like second-nature activity, but as it turns out, muscle activation patterns during Gait are far more complex than “one foot in front of the other.” 
            For the majority of my internship, we conducted several experiments that used electromyography to quantify neuromuscular activity.  Electromyography trackers (EMGs) are essentially sensors that can be placed on the surface of the skin over a muscle that they analyze.  In simplest terms, when a muscle wants to move, the brain tells motor neurons in the spinal cord or brain stem to send signals and create neuromuscular synapses with muscle fibers—a process called innervation.  When many motor neurons innervate muscle fibers, it generates a small electric potential across that muscle (usually on the order of 100 microvolts).  This small voltage can be detected by a series of electrodes attached to an EMG.  Thus, EMG’s are very useful for determining which muscles are activated during a certain activity.  It turns out that upwards of thirty muscles can experience activation during a normal Gait cycle.
            This specific research proved to be very beneficial to my future career aspirations.  As a biomedical engineer, my dream is to someday work in prosthetic engineering and design.  In fact, my original idea for a Magellan project was to work with a prosthetic designing company.  In retrospect, for my first internship in bioengineering, my work this summer in France was perhaps equally beneficial to me in regards to a future in prosthetics.  As I reflected on how I could take the work that I did this summer and use it in my future research, I considered the importance of knowing the Gait cycle is in prosthetic design.  A thought popped into my head one day while working in the lab, and I reasoned that it seems beneficial that those who design prosthetic legs would want a leg to be able to imitate a healthy Gait cycle as closely as possible.  It made me wonder how often the Gait cycle is considered in prosthetic research today.
            Perhaps the most amazing aspect of working in a lab is how quickly you become an expert in a concentrated field.  As a freshman coming into my internship, I knew next to nothing about modern day research, let alone electromyography.  To be quite honest, I didn’t even know what the proprioceptive system or the Gait cycle actually were until my first day working at Paris Descartes.  Nevertheless, it only took a couple of days of reading publications and touring laboratories before I began to follow and understand the conversations of the researchers.  Overall, it taught me a lesson in self-confidence.  Now, regardless of having previous knowledge on a particular subject, I believe that there is nothing that I cannot understand to some degree.  I will try to keep that in mind next time I am in a situation where I have no idea what anyone is talking about…
            Clearly, academically, the research I completed in France was beneficial to my future as an engineer, but the research was only a fraction of the lessons I learned while I was in France.  After all, I am a French student as well.  One of the obstacles that I underestimated when I planned this project (that should have seemed obvious) is that when conducting research in France, most of the research is done in French.  This added a whole new degree of difficulty to working in the lab.  However, after I overcame my culture shock and nerves, and as my French improved with time, working in another language became a remarkable learning experience.  I felt like 50% of the time I was in physics class, but 100% of the time I was in French class.  The brain is a fascinating piece of machinery, and I learned first-hand how well the human mind tends to naturally adapt to its environment.  It is fascinating to experience how quickly your language improves when it constantly surrounds you.  Every day, I forced myself to listen: conversations on the metro, family arguments at the dinner table, remarks of drunken homeless men on the Saturday night streets, whatever situation I was in at the time.  Each day, the foreign language became less foreign to me.
            Aside from the language itself, I admired living a French lifestyle.  Some differences between Paris, France and Washington, Pennsylvania were a whole new experience to me, such as the craziness of weekday morning metro traffic.  Others were subtle, such as how couples sit on the same side of the table at the street corner restaurant.  French culture was quaint and unique.  Some Parisian stereotypes turned out to be blatantly true; Yes, Parisians hate obnoxious Americans.  Frankly, I don’t blame them.  I couldn’t help but hang my head in shame the morning that voices of two American women echoed through the metro as they complained about their poor Wifi connection at their hotel.  It made me realize where this “loud and inconsiderate American” stereotype came from.  Other stereotypes remained a mystery to me; I might have seen five people wearing berets the whole summer.  Regardless, leaving the United States for the first time, I learned a valuable lesson—one that I heard a million times but never truly understood until I traveled.  The world is enormous.  Every neighborhood, village, town, city, state, region, and country in this world has its own unique characteristics.  Depending on where you have been and what you are used to, some characteristics may appear more strange and outlandish than others.  However, to the people that live there and are used to that way of life, they are the norm.  To them, you are the one who is different.  I think it takes a very open mind to appreciate that.
            Overall, my project forced me to grow independently.  As I was reflecting one night over seas, I considered the process of growing up and maturing as an independent.  This is what I decided: as kids, your parents tend to make most decisions on your behalf.  As you grow, you slowly gain the power and the maturity to decide more things on your own: what you will wear today; what you will eat for lunch; what you will do in your free time.  Later on, the decisions yield more impact on your life: what courses you will take next year; where you will go to college.  Finally, when I left for college, I thought that I was as independent as I would ever be.  I thought that every decision in my life was finally up to me to decide.  To some extent, I was right.  Surely, going to college was the biggest leap of independence that I had ever experienced up to that point in my life. However, from this new point of view, I realize now how much is still provided for me while I am at college.  At school, I never have to worry about what I will eat for dinner, or how I will get to class, or where I will sleep.  Plus, if there is any trouble that I cannot handle by myself, my parents are always a car ride away.  I began to realize that luxury of college as I was standing alone in an airport, 5000 miles away from a familiar face, with one hand shaking as I tried to read a map for the first time in my life, and the other hand clasping hard to my luggage because it was the closest thing I had to home.  At that moment, it struck me that the answers were no longer right in front of me, and I was alone to overcome whatever obstacles lied ahead. 

After spending three months alone overseas, this nervousness faded, and I grew accustomed to the discomfort.   I realized that sometimes in life, there are things that simply cannot be prepared for.  Using my own knowledge, instinct, and courage is often the best I can do.  My Magellan Project taught me all of these things, and without this opportunity, I may have never had the chance to do so.  I am so thankful for my Magellan experience, and because of it, I can now say with absolute confidence that I can live independently.

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